23 weeks

How far along? 23 weeks
Size of baby? Little man is the size of a grapefruit (I'm wondering how he fits in there!)
Maternity clothes? Yes! I am never going back to regular clothes again. I am so comfortable
Stretch marks? Yes I have one. None other then that. I still haven't gained a single pound, unbelievably. 
Sleep: I wake up every few hours either to pee or because he is kicking me to death. 
Best moment this week: We can see him moving from the outside. It's so sweet
Miss Anything? Not being hormonal. 
Movement: Oh, yes. He makes himself known. 
Food cravings: Nothing specific this week. 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Over that luckily.
Symptoms: Heartburn made an appearance. I eat tums now like they are going out of style.  
Happy or Moody most of the time: Very happy, most of the time 
Gender: BOY! So excited!
Labor Signs: None and hopefully it stays that way for a long time.
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Looking forward to: Our doctor appointment on Tuesday and finishing the nursery. 

We painted the nursery :)

DOMA and Proposition 8

I might lose some followers from this post, but I am a firm believer in standing up for what you believe is right.

As many of you know, I currently have a degree in Social work. Being a social worker, we hold certain standards to be true, one of which is social justice. Social justice, in my opinion, includes everyone having the same rights regardless of things like race, sex, political affiliation, and sexual orientation.

So, in other words I 100% suppose the decision made by the supreme court. I fully believe that DOMA is unconstitutional and that Prop 8 should be overturned.

Now, where does this fall within my religion?

I struggle with how I feel God would want me to answer this and what I believe is right. Honestly, I believe that love is love. I don't care what is in between your legs. I also believe that God doesn't want me to judge others for a reason. I believe that the reason is because I am human. Along with being a human, I make mistakes. My mistakes are no worse then someone who chooses to be homosexual. Where do I deserve the right to judge? I don't.

How will this affect my parenting?

I will raise my son to love everyone, and to never judge a book by it's cover (this includes race, sexual orientation, etc). I have heard the argument that if I do this I will have to explain to him why it's okay for men to love other men or vice versa. My answer: why would I ever let him think it's wrong? I hope and pray that my son chooses the lifestyle that makes him happy, but I can guarantee you that I will love him regardless of the lifestyle he chooses. I think a huge part of the problem is that as parents we don't teach tolerance, we teach our children that whatever isn't exactly like them is wrong. I want Walker to understand that families come in many different shapes and sizes and that all of them are considered to be families.

So in wraps, I support the right to marry who you love forever. I can't imagine someone telling me that I couldn't marry Ben because we didn't have the correct anatomy to fit together. I believe in a separation of church and state. I don't think anyone should have the right to tell me what is right and just when it comes to my personal life. I believe that someone is born homosexual. Personally, I can not pin point a time in my life when I knew I was straight, why should I ask a gay person to tell me when they knew they were gay? If you don't agree with me, that is perfectly fine. I live in Oklahoma, trust me I am use to people not agreeing with me. I understand that this is a touchy subject. Thank you for reading, I would love to hear you (respectful) opinions!

For the love of all things holy.

I'm not sure if I have blogged about this recently, but I started working at a daycare a few weeks ago. I have worked at daycare for the last 5 years over every summer. I LOVE little children (thank goodness because I am growing one, right?). Anyways, the last three weeks has been a nightmare.

Maybe it's the kids I got this year. I have never worked with first graders before, nor have I been pregnant and worked with children before. However, no matter how many excuses I come up with for their behavior I have to step back and remember sometimes kids just need a lot of redirection.

Now, don't get me wrong. I love my job even with it's challenges. I love my co-workers (sometimes) even though they can't keep count of their children and whats the number one rule when it comes to child care? Count, count count!

But even with it's negatives there are a lot of rewarding moments. I love getting hugs and being told that they love me. How can you not love having small children hug you all day? However, I'm not so sure Walker likes my class very much. It seems that they are constantly poking him (I think it's because most first graders are right at belly button height) and he kicks back. I love the random quotes (I was told today that they hope my baby doesn't come out Chinese. Um say what? haha)

In all honesty, even through the hard times I love these kids. I know that someday they will look back and remember me in their lives (hopefully) I really want to make a positive impact. When they begin to frustrate me I try to think about that moment in the long run. Even though they may not be listening to me, they will remember how I reacted in that moment. If I scream and yell, they will only listen out of fear. If I try to reason and explain, maybe I will get them to listen out of respect. I prefer respect to fear any day.

Marriage and babies

There seems to be this notion that since I got married and pregnant young, my life is over.

I want to assure you that isn't the case.

I had a women tell me that I will be missing the best years of my life, stuck as home cooking dinner and changing diapers. I will never get to get out with friends, date, drink till 5 am, or sleep till noon again.

In my opinion, my son is worth more then all of that put together. I would rather stay up nursing all night then drinking, play peek-a-boo then go to the movies, cuddle and read bedtime stories then sit around and drink wine. I can honestly say I have had my fun with being irresponsible. I am ready to know the most tender and amazing love there is to know.

Oh, and when it comes to marriage. Finding my husband at such a young age is just a bonus! As he likes to say, I have many years to torture him! But in all honesty, I get to truly grow old with someone who has seen me in all my stages. How many people can say they met the love of their life at 18? While I may not get to enjoy the party scene any longer, I honestly believe that what I have at home is worth ten thousand times more.

21 weeks

How far along? 21 weeks
Size of baby? Little man is the size of a pomegranate 
Maternity clothes? Yes! I am never going back to regular clothes again.
Stretch marks? Yes I have one. None other then that. I still haven't gained a single pound, unbelievably. 
Sleep: Has been really good! I am always so tired.
Best moment this week: Little man started kicking like crazy! We also started his nursery!
Miss Anything? Laying on my tummy. 
Movement: Yes! His kicks are getting way more fierce.
Food cravings: Brownie with ice cream on top haha
Anything making you queasy or sick: Over that luckily.
Symptoms: Other then feeling him move, I have been great. 
Happy or Moody most of the time: Very happy, all the time.  
Gender: BOY! So excited!
Labor Signs: None and hopefully it stays that way for a long time.
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Looking forward to: Finishing the nursery! Can't wait to have it all done!

Also, the green is only an accent wall! Oh, and I promise it's not as bright as it looks here!

20 weeks HALF WAY THERE!

How far along? 20 weeks
Size of baby? Baby is the size of a Banana!
Maternity clothes? Yes! I am never going back to regular clothes again.
Stretch marks? Yes I have one. None other then that. I still haven't gained a single pound.
Sleep: Has been really good! I am always so tired.
Best moment this week: We had our anatomy scan this week! He is absolutely perfect!
Miss Anything? Roller coasters. We spent the week in Florida.
Movement: Yes! His kicks are getting way more fierce.
Food cravings: Nothing specific this week.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Over that luckily.
Symptoms: RLP, and acne. Other then that I am doing wonderful!
Happy or Moody most of the time: Very happy, all the time.  
Gender: BOY!
Labor Signs: None and hopefully it stays that way for a long time.
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Looking forward to: I started my job this week. I can't wait to have all kinds of fun with my kiddos this summer.