31 weeks, Mommy time, and update

This week marks a single digit countdown until baby Walker arrives! I feel so unprepared for him, yet at the same time I know that physically I have everything he really needs. 

This week I have been struck with this thought of "I will never be alone again". Not only is that terrifying, it's also a crazy thought. How will I make time for myself? To think this through I went to my mommy friends to discuss how they unwind everyday and find time to still be good wives. Here is what I have found. 

-Establish a bed time. Make your child keep to that bed time everyday (obviously the first few weeks, this isn't going to work) so that you and your husband can have at least an hour of just you time. 

-Wine. It is your friend. So are bubble baths, make sure you take them as often as possible.

-Date night at least once a week. Ben and I have talked about this. I think we will aim for coffee dates or even walks once a week while his parents watch Walker. It give everyone a little bit of time. 

-Read a book. This is important if you are me. I am a book nerd. I want to be sure that I don't lose this passion when I become a mom. This is also my "me" time everyday. 

I am terrified that becoming a mom means that I can't be me anymore, but I know that fear is exactly that. A fear. It isn't true, and even if it is I will love my little man so much, it won't even matter. I am so ready to love and hold him, yet I don't want him to come out because of how protected he is inside me. I love watching my belly move, and knowing that my son is located right below my heart. There really is no safer place. 

As for our week, we have the Glow Run on Saturday and a baby shower on Sunday. Next Friday is my last day of work and then I will begin my career as a stay at home mom (SO excited). I am now having bi-weekly doctor appointments and will switch to every week at 36 weeks. 

Here is my weekly bump photo